breaking through the sluggish ick

This is the way it always happens. Mix some money stress in with a 16 hour work day, throw in a Mexican buffet provided by the best lady cooks the state has to offer and voila,
you are now waking up with filmy goo in your eyes and eating honey buns for breakfast.
You are now feeling incased by sluggish ick and wondering if you will ever get that vibrant veggie laden feeling back again.
The problem actually started about two weeks ago. When I forgot to pick up my co-op order and then never really had time to go to the store and got no sleep one night and then started drinking caffeine again. It’s a blood sugar snowball.
I had been following an eating plan that basically was lots of fruits and vegetables, protein and good fats, local and organic whenever possible. This usually meant I ate a lot of beautiful salads and smoothies. When all else failed and I was really in a pinch, I would just do the classic low carb thing and take off the bread. But what started to happen was that I gradually started inching more toward low carb instead of toward high veggie. I would go through the drive thru and get something that seemed low impact but really turned out to trigger more fast food cravings. (They are really good with sneaking those addictives in there, I mean additives.)
And then on Election Day, “We gorge ourselves on party foods that require the recipes be recited, printed out, swapped for future use. This is the way women bond, and it is always women who run things as important as elections and the food served during them.” (from my last Mardi Gras Election blog) So I gorged and then drank caffeine to counter act the blood sugar crash, and now, two days later, I am still struggling to get back on track.
I think there are a couple things I can learn from this. One is that I have to make grocery shopping and meal planning a priority. You are only as good as your default plan. I didn’t have a default plan this week. I knew it would be a stressful week but I didn’t plan for it. The other is that I have to implement a corrective blood sugar measure as soon as I get out of wack. None of this, “oh well, I’ve already blown it” stuff.
Today I am drinking a gallon of water, taking my blood sugar balance formula and eating only fruits and vegetables to get stable again. I’m also going to walk for 15 min. 2x today instead of meditating because there’s a real good chance I will just fall asleep during mediating today, and I don’t have time to go to the gym. This blog is so helpful, because it allows me the space to sort out the problems and identify the solutions.
Working through our flaws and our missteps is the way we grow to the next level. It’s the way we turn shit into a shift. In Elizabeth Lesser’s book The Seeker’s Guide, she says a lot of quote worthy things but this relates to today, “It took me a long time to decide to become a human being, and to look within my own flawed nature for salvation.”